My Summer of Self-Discovery

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I am so grateful for growth and maturity. I am grateful for the light that flickers within my soul, reminding me that I have purpose.

Throughout my life, I’ve had this ongoing fear of judgment, ridicule and even success. Yes, there have been times where I’ve feared my own potential. I constantly question my abilities and compare them to others, which ultimately prevents me from fully taking advantage of the life that circulates through my veins. Have any of you ever felt this way? Felt fear of letting go and surrendering your heart to the possibilities that live in the unknown?

Over the past few months, I’ve existed in this ongoing stupor. Deep down, I felt stuck. Merely existing in this grand world and not truly living. I was idly present in this perpetual cycle of fear and doubt and wanting to be a more courageous person, but oblivious to the steps I needed to take in order to move towards purposeMY purpose!

Until recently, I’ve never really been able to grasp and process it all. My desires, my shame, my anger, my fears, my subconscious habits, they all just existed in this Continue reading

Love ME First

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Her subconscious soul cries to be heard. Yearning to be made WHOLE!

She desperately wants to experience her worth, really! And so she constantly attempts to convince herself that she is indeed worthy…Confident!

A masquerade ball of emotions is the story of her life. Smiles and intentional words of affirmation dances, disguising occasional disappointments with self. Continue reading

my truth

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my truth is relevant.

my truth is beautiful.

my truth may come with some pain.

but my truth spoken is healing.

my truth is acceptance.

my truth is authentic.

my truth is attacked by lies.

but my truth, still, chooses life.

my truth dances beneath blue skies and white clouds of hope; it soars.

my truth paints with vivid colors of emotion; it brightens my story.

my truth is quiet.

my truth roars…

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Signed “Courageous Self”

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Dear Self – Just in case you forgot again, I just wanted to remind you that You Are Beautiful!

There will always be doubters, and nay-sayers… Who cares! Stop hiding who you are to please the world. Some may think you’re selfish. Few may misinterpret your introverted nature as having a “better than” spirit. Others may even know of your past pains and only see damaged goods. But through it all, you know your truth, you accept it & that’s all that matters.

Know that there is beauty in your growing! Beauty in your knowing! Beauty in your strength! Beauty in your mourning!

There is beauty in your smile. Beauty in your eyes! Beauty in the kinks of your crown! Beauty in the chocolate hews of your stride!

As long as you know and accept your truth, there opinions don’t matter. Trust in the raw nature of your beauty and embrace it.

Do not be ashamed of who you are or of your choices. Life is such an awesome gift and you were created for a beautiful purpose. Yes, some of your choices may eventually lead to lessons learned & that’s OK!! That’s the beauty of life!

To live & to love & to create & to express yourself SHAMELESSLY!!!

So just in case you forgot again, I’m here to remind you that You Are Beautiful! You Are Worthy! You are Bad-Ass! & You are an awesome mother!

Never again question your worth or allow your circumstances to dictate what you see in the mirror. Take control of your story. Create the beauty you know to be true of yourself in your heart.
With Unconditional Love,
Courageous Self

 

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#30Layers30Days – Day 23: “Three Blind Lies”

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Name three things you have felt the need to hide or lie about in the past that you’ve had to overcome in order to move forward

I look back and accept the fact that I did my best to hide the insecure girl of my youth. I was ashamed of her. Ashamed of some of the choices she made in order to feel good about herself. When in reality, all she wanted was to feel and be loved to her core.

There were times where I lied to myself… Continue reading

#30Layers30Days – Day 22 “If They Knew”

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If they knew __________ , they would know why I __________.
(Interpret this however you like.)

They see me now. They see the ‘surface’ beauty and successes that adorn the path laid for me. They may see my smile or read congratulatory statuses that grace my page, but they don’t really see me.

They don’t see the tests and trials that were chosen for me. The bad choices I’ve had to endure, the key lessons I’ve learned, the lies seared onto the skin of my soul. They don’t see my childhood, nor the intimates of my adolescence. They don’t see all that has been monumental in shaping the I Am that stands strong before you this day.

If they knew how insecure I was back then, they would know why my new found confidence means so much to me today.

If you only knew…

 

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#30Layers30Days – Day 21: “Rewards”

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What do you do when you are in need of attention or acknowledgement from someone outside of yourself?  Yes, we all know that we need to look within, but we’re human and sometimes we want attention.  Sometimes we get a little needy.  So what do you do?

If you didn’t already know, then I’m here to tell you. Falling in love with yourself does something to you. It’s like a light bulb goes off within the gutt of your soul, reminding you that you are worthy of experiencing all the finer things in life. You are assured of your value. Increasingly content with you story. Proud of your struggle.

I admit, I am prone to ignoring my innate desire for more; more time, more attention, more affirmation, more affection, more energy, more love… Continue reading