I am so grateful for growth and maturity. I am grateful for the light that flickers within my soul, reminding me that I have purpose.
Throughout my life, I’ve had this ongoing fear of judgment, ridicule and even success. Yes, there have been times where I’ve feared my own potential. I constantly question my abilities and compare them to others, which ultimately prevents me from fully taking advantage of the life that circulates through my veins. Have any of you ever felt this way? Felt fear of letting go and surrendering your heart to the possibilities that live in the unknown?
Over the past few months, I’ve existed in this ongoing stupor. Deep down, I felt stuck. Merely existing in this grand world and not truly living. I was idly present in this perpetual cycle of fear and doubt and wanting to be a more courageous person, but oblivious to the steps I needed to take in order to move towards purpose…MY purpose!
Until recently, I’ve never really been able to grasp and process it all. My desires, my shame, my anger, my fears, my subconscious habits, they all just existed in this Continue reading
God can use both stillness and chaos to shape his purpose for your life. He does not exist within the chaos, but he can use it for your good.
I can attest to the fact that sometimes life can throw you some unexpected curveballs. But one thing I’ve learned, and I’m still learning is that God is never through. Through every valley, every mountain top, thunderstorms and sunny skies, God is always working on your behalf.
When you’re in the midst of your storm
And calamity encircles the makings of your existence
Joy and peace may appear light years away
Frustration and fear attempting to smolder
What optimism was left within your soul
But still, your courage & faith must persevere Continue reading
Trust is like a valued treasure for me.
I admit, my ability to trust in the unknown has been compromised by past experiences. There have been instances where I’ve felt abandoned by those who I thought should love me the strongest, wrongfully judged by others who should have represented safety and refuge, and betrayed by those who had my whole heart.
Trust, at its crux, must be cultivated. It must be cherished and respected with high regard by all parties involved. Trust must be nurtured and viewed with gentle awe. Continue reading
Overwhelming emotions are simultaneously introduced
Pain, betrayal, fear, shame
You take your pick
But she doesn’t want to wine and dine
To taste the bitterness produced
By resentful anger and its fame
Renown for its antagonistic wrath
Consuming all who allow his entry
No! She’ll rather partake in Joy and Forgiveness
Have peace enter in the same
To create her own path
Where Love, Success & Happiness abound
Choosing to lean into the uneasiness
She will not numb her symptoms this time around
Often times, I know it can be difficult to confront our emotions. So much so that we choose to hide behind them instead, pretending that they don’t exist; hoping them into oblivion. Instead of allowing ourselves to be vulnerable and truly experience our feelings, we choose to numb them instead. Blinded by the ache mounting beneath your left rib cage, you inject your Novocaine of choice into the coronary arteries surrounding your pained heart. Continue reading