You know the quote that states, “It’s always too early to quit”? Well lately, I can’t help but consider the option (to quit). As I’m growing into this new woman, there is so much that I want to accomplish, but suddenly feel the urge to quit before I even really get started.
Over the past few months, I feel like I have accomplished so much for myself as a woman. In relation to my self-worth – my value has multiplied. The little girl inside who used to idly sit by allowing her individuality to jut slip away, now smiles in amazement; proud of the steps I am taking so that I am able to look in the mirror and maintain a sense of dignity . The little girl who was more concerned about pleasing others is now growing up, taking the time to come into her own.
I am currently in a season of my life where I am learning what it feels like to be in love with me. I am like a precious flower blooming before my very eyes. Becoming one with my purpose, familiar with my calling, intimate with my journey and the pace with which I am healing, learning and growing.
I am in the process of accepting things about myself and my past that cannot be changed and pursuing the woman that I know I can be. I am in full pursuit – working to embody a woman of confidence and of worthy cause. Deserving of a life fitting for me, and no one else!
But I must be honest, this journey is complex. I am proud of the woman I am becoming, yet still there remains pieces of the “old” me that attempts to linger. Fear tries to creep in and take over my strong desire to embody change. Although change is the very thing that I desire, it is also what I fear.
I enjoy my comforts. I enjoy the simple pleasures of life – silence, solitude, familiarity, safety. But I also crave more. My soul thirsts for more. She is parched by beaming rays of familiar mediocrity. I long to listen to the still voice within encouraging me to leap, reassuring me to risk losing the comfort that accompanies my cozy and familiar life.
Although I do want more, with more also comes more responsibility, more accountability. I become challenged to put in the work required to get me to where I want to be; where I know I belong – and then the fear kicks in. Doubt arises, questioning my capabilities – Am I really ready? Am I really able?
Can I really accomplish all that is set before me? And with an undeniable urgency, my intuition responds, “YES, YOU CAN!” And so there you have it – I can’t quit. It’s not an option for me. It doesn’t mean that I don’t still feel the fear, I do feel the fear. I feel the fear of success and all that comes along with it. (Or at least what I imagine might come along with it). Maybe I’m afraid because deep down I know it’s all possible for me, already written into my future; I become intimidated by my own dreams!
But in the wise words of Bishop T.D. Jakes, I have to feel the fear and do it anyway! My future self will thank me for it one day. This, I know is true!
So let’s say no to our fears and yes to pushing through the discomfort. Our fears will no longer control our dreams & desires. Success may indeed come with more responsibility, more accountability and more stress even. But as long as you’re living amongst your passion and the fruit of your labor, it’ll all be worth it in the end. You deserve to experience all that you were created to be. Call forth the I Am within you who whispers a tale of the future you dream of for yourself. Don’t deny yourself of your birth right to be AWESOME!
You know my motto – Be the woman that you dream up on the inside, and be it on purpose!
Until Next Time Loves,